Where Do We Go from Here?
The new normal is a painful reminder of yesterday
By Natalie Jean
As I lay awake
at night, something that has become the new normal, I pinch myself to see if
this is all real. Staring at the ceiling, I ponder whether we will ever be
normal again. How did we get here, a pandemic, no real leadership, systemic
racism, police brutality, rioting, looting, lynching, marching, protesting,
masks, and no human touch? Am I to never walk alone, because someone will
attack me, because of the color of my skin? I wish it were all a bad dream, but
apparently it is not. These thoughts plague my mind. At one point, I was told
to see a therapist, that I shouldn’t internalize these atrocities. This is
true, but how can I not internalize things? I am black and living in America.
What effects one, affects me as well. But I am OK with me. I love me. A
therapist cannot answer the question, “Why do people hate me, because of the
color of my skin?” What have I done to people that have never met me? How do I
deal with someone wanting me dead? I do know that it is deeper than the skin,
but I would like that question answered. I do believe in the notion that
everything happens for a reason. Are we supposed to learn something from all of
this? If you believe in God, how do you keep your faith? How do we keep a
loving heart, and not wander down the road of darkness? I look at music and
think this is the one place where we can’t and should not be divided. It should
be a place where we can come together as one, enjoying a moment. Unfortunately
for some music genres this is not the case. Country and Americana say they
except all people, but is this truly the case? It’s interesting that it is
alright for Country/Americana artists to cross-over into other genres. But when
a person of color decides to create Country/Americana music, there is outrage.
It seems as though the doors are shut. You have to be extra special to be seen
and heard. I remember when Beyonce performed with the Dixie Chicks (now The
Chicks) at the CMA’s one year. There was such an uproar for one little
performance. How dare someone black try to crossover! But Beyonce wasn’t even
trying to crossover. It was merely a collaboration. Could you imagine what
would happen, if she wanted to become a Country Artist? Race has no place in
music, in my opinion. If you like what you hear, why should it matter? It
always seems as though, black people always have to fight for something. We
always have to prove our worth. Well, I Am Americana. I am here to break down
barriers. I am making my mark in the Americana genre.
I am an award
winning multi-nominated independent artist. The music world can be very tough.
Always trying to compete with mainstream artists. Always trying to be heard and
be seen. Last year, I decided how I really wanted to be perceived as an artist.
I want to be an effective player in life. So, I decided to create a social
message impact album. But what would I call it? What would it be about? I often
attend music seminars. They say the same thing over and over. Artists are not
writing or singing about the times, like they did a long time ago. So, I
decided to create a 15 song Americana Social Impact album. I must have had a
premonition, because all of the songs, deal with everything that we are all
dealing with today. Rape, racism, homelessness, gun violence, police brutality,
female empowerment, the environment, self-love, and immigration, etc.. I
decided to call it, “Where Do We Go from Here? It was released on February 14,
2020. I don’t know if I had a premonition of what was to come, but after all of
this, I believe that it was meant to be. So, the question is “Where Do We Go
from Here? How do we (all of America) rise from the ashes and create a better
world for today and tomorrow? Can someone tell me? “I refuse to give into your
fears, nor will I give you any of my tears” – I Am